I have not updated the blog for the same reason Anne didn’t write much about her fight with cancer. She didn’t want to share bad news. Similarly, I don’t want to share my grief if I feel it isn’t going particularly well. On the eternal time clock I feel peace, and feel Anne is in a better place and we will be together again, but here in our time, with however many decades ahead of me, I ache without her. I keep expecting the cooling balm of time to heal the hole in my center. I recognize I am getting better; I don’t break down or scream as I drive any more. But I still feel I am only half of my self and that is not a burden I have cared to share with others. Healing me is going take more time. As we work through that time, I can say that “right now” the time has come to gather the family and to once again get on the road. It is not another extended trip; that will have to wait. It is a trip with the remaining 5 and a special guest (my mom.) It is out of the country and it is a great way to honor the year anniversary of Anne’s death, doing something she loved.
We are headed to Japan, which is too expensive to be on most extended travel itineraries but a great place to visit for a vacation. This will be my 7th trip to Japan. I can easily say it is my favorite place to return to or as it is said in Japanese, “go and come back”. Our theme for this trip will be trains and ramen. We have rail passes and the ability to indulge over and over at ramen bars. We haven’t worked out the full itinerary yet but will in the next few days. My hope is we can bond, laugh and experience the world as a tight group again.
I am going to “try” and get everyone to write a final post for sixintheworld. This website was not created to be a long family history but to document an intense year in the middle of our lives. It is hard to believe that year is now 6 years in the past. At the time the name seemed perfect, but I should have named the site better. 6 was always just a snapshot of our family in time. Of course, I figured that number would increase rather than decrease as the kids married and had children of their own, but in either case it is no longer statistically accurate, unless you count my mom. Our blog has been and remains an amazing resource and a reminder for us of all the love we shared, lessons we learned and ways we grew, but it is time to sunset it. I will keep it up as long as WordPress is supported, but our posts from this trip will be the end of Sixintheworld postings, one last burst to close a glorious time of our lives.