If there are 4 words in the English language which are scarier than the 3 words, “you have cancer,” they are “your cancer is back.” A little over a week ago, Anne heard those words. Our family has been once again placed into a state of shock and we are once again doing everything we can to aggressively attack the monster inside her.
I had encouraged Anne to write about her experience between the cancers. However, during that time she had hoped to put cancer behind her and spend her thinking time on other topics. I completely understood. The cancer world is hard, it is often dark, and it is often lonely.
The physical labor is hard, the drugs are hard, the alternative treatments are hard, the mental gymnastics are hard. However it also is a tender time and it is easy to focus on what is most important, it is easy to show your love for each other, it is easy to hold on to each other for comfort.
It is scary and that can feel dark. Death becomes a real topic of discussion. Disease is never far from the center of any discussion, but so is healing, so is our purpose, our bonds and the incredible blessings we have received.
The loneliness is also real. I don’t know what it is like to be the one with cancer, Anne doesn’t know what it is like to watch the person you love with cancer. However, that is a topic for another day because although there is a lonely component to this struggle, there has also been an outpouring of love and support, which Anne has written about and that love and support sustain us.
Thanks to all who have read this blog, commented and emailed us. It has been a privilege to share our travel experiences and our readjustment, as awkward as it has been, with our readers.